This site for me is a declaration that I am now in pursuit of painting professionally. For a long time I have wanted to do this, but have found excuses not to, born out of fear. Don't get me wrong, I love to paint and draw, and a lot of people think I'm really good, ...I just didn't really believe it myself. Why? - I dunno. Fear does funny things to the human psyche.
There are a lot of well established painters my age that I admire, and yet I thought there was no way I could ever get to where they are since I am just starting out. I then read an old post on a blog by artist David Kassan where he says "...still have a long way to go to get there but its the journey that is the kick ass part of this painting gig."
I'm realizing it's not about getting obsessed about reaching an endpoint, but taking the journey today. It may take me 25 years to get to where I want to be as an artist, making me 60 years old before I might realize my dreams, but I'd rather have that than be 60 and still be in the same place I am now.
Another good friend of mine confronted me about my hesitation to pursue painting. He said it's like you have all the signs that say GO!, but you're standing in front of two doors; the door to painting, and the door to something else, and I'm waiting for someone else to open the door for me. I am busted.
Due to the economy, I lost my job in October(doing painting and sculpture for museum exhibits), and now that I'm still unemployed, it seems like it's time to reinvent myself.
So I can't promise excellent grammar, or anything really thrilling, but by reading read this blog, you can come on the journey with me. I'll try to post as often as I can, and please give me feedback as you like.
9 years ago